To my kids,
You guys are going to kill us! We just walked away from a kids dream house! Let me explain.
10 years ago your Dad and I moved here to GA from VA. I was sure it was only for 3 years and then we would return to the VA mountains and to our family that we both adore. For lots of reasons that hasn't happened. I spent most of the first 7 years angry. Angry at Jim for moving me so far away. Angry at God for not giving me what, in my eyes, seemed good. Angry at myself for being angry.
I was a young Christian and I didn't know. I couldn't see what God was doing and my faith was still so weak that I didn't trust Him.
I didn't know that our marriage was so shaky that we needed to be far away from everything we leaned on before. I didn't know that we had two little girls in GA that needed us. I didn't know that there were missionaries that needed our financial support to begin their mission. I didn't know...
But I do now. So when we hear from the hospital in VA that there are no jobs... I know. When we visit Nashville and there are no jobs...I know. When we look for a bigger house here in GA and find nothing...I know.
I know that God wants us right here. He wants you kids to have your best friends live right beside you. He wants you, Gianna, to have the familiarity of living in the same home a little longer. He wants you guys to learn to get along so He is letting the 6 of you share a bathroom:) He is teaching me to be grateful for everything I have and not to long for more. He is showing us all that more "stuff" (a bigger house, more land, another bathroom, a lake to play on, a theater room, a basketball court, etc) won't make us happy. He has set the lonely in us. He wants us to run to Him to fill it.
I love you guys. And while I yearn to give your feet dirt to run on and your hands trees to climb, I want more to fill you with the knowledge of a good God that loves you and wants what is best for you. Sometimes what is best is not what is comfortable. I hope you learn that quicker than I did.
Treasuring every minute in my heart,
And just because I want to torture you. Here are some of the things we walked away from yesterday...